|Hello from Sydney!
||[Aug. 22nd, 2011|10:20 pm]
Good day to all! :)
I had a sudden calling and eventually got directed here. Looking back on past posts, I must say I've been a little on the dark side, way too dark. It is good to know that I am no longer in that sphere. The storm is over. Here I am, more than a few thousand miles away from home and loved ones, where I decided to pen my thoughts, for what's worth.
Until last night did I truly comprehend "What doesn't kill you makes you stronger". In less than a month's time marks the passing of a year. During this period of time, tears were shed, tempers flared and my life revolved around healing. Physically, the wounds have all healed, but still pink and tender from the merciless saws and surgical cuts.
Sometimes I wonder how did I ever get through a massive surgery just like that? It seems like just yesterday I was getting prepped for the op, and bidding farewell to my parents and sisters. Even at the mere thought of recalling the events leading to today brings tears to my eyes. It isn't easy getting by, I felt alone, constrained in my body, my actions and thoughts. That if I were to do something it wouldn't seem like the right thing to do.
Now that its been a year, I am reminded of the gift of life bestowed upon me. I am grateful for the care and gestures by family, friends and loved ones. Not long ago, I was asked how I was doing, and my answer was "I'm contented with life right now". It is just the right words to describe how I feel about life. And I definitely hope that everyone has been well. :)
Till the next time,
love, Mathilda xx